WHEN CHRISTMAS BROKE MY HEART
Written 1 January 2012. I was 16
Today was the worst day of my life. My closest cousin, Cupid, destroys me in everything I do. When I was little, Cupid and I were equal. We were the same height, size, and strength. Now he is almost half a foot taller than me, Ten times bigger than me, and is nothing but pure muscle. Just by looking at him, he gets all the attention. The only thing I can beat him in, is grades. Though no one cares about grades these days. It's all about looks.
Looks will get you anywhere in life. You don’t even have to be a good actor/actress to act anymore. All you have to do is look good. In addition to just looking good, knowing that you look good makes you 100% better than anyone else in life.
I always wondered why Christmas, the girl I liked, fell for Cupid instead. I was pretty confident that she did. However, you can never be 100% sure about something unless you have proof. So me being me, I convinced my Bold cousin to cuff (ask her out) to see what she would say. As every girl said, she said yes.
My Cousin didn’t even like her. Plus he already had a girlfriend. He didn’t care, that’s what he does. He told me that he not going to even talk to her (that is exactly what he did). I became furious. When I asked her out and she said “she would but she lives too far away” and that “we would barely see each other“. Christmas and Cupid only meant each other face to face once and never meant again.
Once I was alone Bolted straight into my room and wrote about how terrible Christmas had made me feel.-
I FINALLY REALIZED THAT GIRLS ARE A WASTE OF MY TIME. EVERY KEY WRITTEN ON HOW TO GET A GIRL TO LIKE YOU ARE LIES. THE ONLY KEY TO GETTING GIRLS IS TO BE A COCKY, ARROGANT, A-HOLE. BAD EQUALS THE WINNER. GOOD EQUALS LOSER. NICE GUYS FINISH LAST AT EVERYTHING. A NICE GUY CANNOT BE A BOSS. HE WILL ONLY BE TURNED INTO A WUSS. LONG STORY SHORT, EVERYONE WANTS A HERO, BUT THE VILLAIN IS WHAT EVERY GIRL CHOOSES. I WILL NEVER START A CONVERSATION WITH HER AGAIN.
Future me —
N*gga calm down you haven’t even gotten a nut yet. How are you that down bad and you have yet to kiss a girl? Alright, I get it. You watch everyone kissing girls and working on their stroke game while you work on your forearm strength. More where that came from buddy…Buckle up!
Forreal though. I’m not sure why it hurt as much as it did. I wish I can say it only get’s easier, but it doesn’t. :/
